I dont know what or why I do what I do but it seems everytime I have a chance to meet someone or hang out with a boy I always seem to fuck things up. Im scared of messing things up which I just seem to do everytime, but I just dont want things to blow up in my face so I miss out on chances with guys all the time. I wish I could just drop my act my problems my trust issues and just let people in. Since high school I have always shut people out, I don't trust anyone and everytime I like a guy they always want to seem to be friends, so now I just fuck it up before they have a chance to like me or before they tell me that I make a great friend. I've had guy friends tell me I'm different, that I'm not like other girls but what am I missing to make them want to see me in a different light. I just don't know what Im suppose to do, or how i'm suppose to be able to trust anyone. I believe in love and I believe there is someone out there but how am i suppose to find him if I dont trust anyone? |
